HAPPY BIRTHDAY YAN AN




god i miss my baby:(((




god i miss my baby:(((
hey guess what,, I was tagged by @pikachulein❣️
Rules: Write down 15 kpop idols (preferably your biases) and let them get sorted randomly and write down which role they got
link: https://www.random.org/lists/
Parent: Lisa blackpink (oof okay,,,)
Sibling: Eunwoo astro (yeet! i am okay with that)
Grandparent: Lucas nct (he’s not even my oldest bias)
Haunts you: B.I ikon (what’s he gonna do? rap in the corner of my room?)
S/O: I.N stray kids (bITCH!! YES!!)
Your ex: Rap Monster bts (oof ouchies my heart;;; not monie;-;)
Your bestfriend: Seulgi red velvet ( i doubt it, but it’s okay)
Proposed to you: Heechul super junior (OKAY NO, HERES MY OLDEST BIAS. I AM NOT OKAY WITH THAT)
Your boss: S Coups svt (jeeez why? i love him so much, i’m not okay with that)
Random person you met at a bar: E’Dawn pentagon (doesn’t seem likely but none of these do so ¯_(ツ)_/¯)
Your rival: D.O exo (bitch he would KILL me, i would be dead already)
First kiss: Jackson got7 (he got me feelin like a papillon…. THAT WAS THE ONLY THING I COULD THINK OF AND I’M NOT SURE IF IT SOUNDED SEXUAL OR NOT)
Drunk and singing karaoke: Hyungwon monsta x (yeahh,,, i see it)
Playing 7 minutes in heaven with: Jae day6 (god,,, how am i supposed to feel? he’s almost 26,, I’M 16!)
Gave you your favorite dessert: Minnie (g)i-dle (thank you queen,, ily<3)
i tag @seoblime @paninimark @donghyuwus @honeydewchenle @daisyong @huangfilms
Requested: Nahh
Genre: Fluff/Angst?
Warning(s): Veeeery light swearing
A/N: I’m half awake writing this, so excuse my grammar mistakes. Also I just want to write for more groups, but like I should write something for pentagon before I go around writing for other groups
Your name: Y/N
Gender neutral as usual

Jinho walked into your shared room to see you curled up in a pile of blankets. He thought maybe you were just cold so he shrugged it off and got into bed with you. “Jinnie I don’t know how you manage to love yourself every day without feeling the slightest bit self conscious”, he looked to you with a surprised expression plastered across his face. “Y/N I do feel self conscious about a lot of stuff, but I try not to let it get to me”.
You threw some blankets off of you to reveal your tear stained cheeks. “Oh Y/N, what’s wrong? Please let me help you.” His heart couldn’t help but break when he saw the state you were in. “I’m not pretty Jinho! I look like a pig!” you quipped as tears continued to pour from your eyes. “You are the prettiest pig I know Y/N!” he chuckled playfully as you slapped his chest “Gee thanks Jinho”

He absolutely hated when you felt this way. You’re his everything and you hating on yourself hurt him too. “Y/N please you’re perfect just the way you are” “Hui it doesn’t feel that way though, I’m not good enough for you”. He was shocked that you would say that, he knew you never thought that way usually.
“Is it the fans? Are they doing this to you?” you could only nod. He sighed and pulled you into his arms, “Y/N-ie please don’t listen to them, I love you and you love me. Our love should be enough proof that we belong together”. You cried into his shirt as he rubbed circles into your back. “I love you so much Y/N, never forget that”

He hated that you were self conscious about your laugh. It’s his favorite thing about you, so he tries his best to make you laugh. He often tells you bad jokes, sometimes he is clumsy on purpose. He’d do anything to hear you laugh. “Hey Y/N! I got a new joke for you” “Hongseok don’t even-” "Y/N-ie please?“ he cut you off.
He looked at you with the cutest puppy eyes, of course you couldn’t say no, you only nodded. His face immediately lit up "Okay okay um, Knock knock”, “Who’s there?” you groaned. “Dwayne” he giggled, “Dwayne who?” god here i go i’m gonna laugh at his shit joke, you thought. “Dwayne the bathtub I’m dwowning”, you just stared at him with a annoyed expression. “That was awful Seok”

Ever since you two started dating he knew you were uncomfortable with your body. He never brought it up though, he didn’t know how to. One day you were picking at your body, making mental notes of all the things you hate about yourself. He walked into the room to see you poking at your stomach, he decided it was time to talk about it.
“Y/N you look adorable, you know that right?” you just turned to look at him, a frown present on your face. “Oh shut it Hyojong, I do not”, his eyes widened once he fully processed what you had said. “I’m serious Y/N, you are the cutest human on the planet” you turned cherry red once you heard that. “And even if you weren’t, I’d still love you because you’re my boy/girl/date/friend”

It was obvious to him that you were self conscious about your body. He hated that you didn’t see yourself the way he did, but he knew he couldn’t do much but support you through this. Every time you made a snide comment about your body he tried to tell you to stop it. Sometimes he would just compliment you to death, that usually seemed to stop you.
“Wow I look awful” you said as you turned around to reveal your new outfit Shinwon purchased for you. “Y/N how many times do I have to say this? You look great in everything” he added, you just scoffed at his comment. “I’m serious Jagi! You are the most beautiful person I’ve ever met!” he stopped for a moment, “You could make a trash bag look like a million bucks!” he said that with so much sincerity that it was hilarious. You burst out into laughter, he sat and stared blankly not understanding why you’re laughing “Y/N what’s so funny?”

This boy didn’t realize you were insecure about your legs until you deadass told him in the most blunt way too. “Jesus Changgu isn’t it obvious already?” you quipped “Y/N I really don’t get why you’re so mad, it would really help if you just explained it to me”. You sighed trying to regain some composer so you don’t snap at your boyfriend, “I hate my legs.”
You stared him straight in the eyes as his mouth made an “o” shape. “I… didn’t know, I’m sorry” he felt bad for not realizing sooner, but it’s not like you talked about it to him. “Don’t be sorry Changgu, I’m sorry for raising my voice at you” you sighed in defeat. “I accept your apology, and I’m going to make it my mission to help you overcome your insecurities!” he stated, you couldn’t help but smile at his cute antics. “Thank you Changgu”

You two were on a quick walk so you could get some fresh air. This was when he first noticed you were insecure about your arms because you had refused to change into a short sleeve shirt, in 30C/86F weather. You were always pretty stubborn about showing your body, but this was new. “Y/N-ie it’s so hot, how are you not dying?” he asked you.
“My pure hatred for my arms keeps me cool” you said as you crossed your arms. He was shocked to say the least. “I’m sorry for not realizing sooner, but Y/N you’re going to pass out from a heat stroke or something please change” you sighed in defeat as you turned back to the dorms. “I’ll get you for this Yanan”

Yuto knew about you’re hatred for your smile. He didn’t understand it, but he tried to tell you there was nothing to be uncomfortable about. It didn’t work, but he tried. “Yuto thanks for trying, but it’s useless at this point” “Y/N just please tell my why you’re insecure about it?”, you didn’t want to tell him because you felt stupid for it.
“Yuto I d-don’t” you stuttered, he sighed as he pulled you in. “Y/N I understand if you don’t want to tell me, but please know that I’m here for you” you wrapped your arms around his torso, nuzzling your head into the crook of his neck. “Thank you” you whispered, “Anything for you Y/N”

So Hyunggu was unaware of the fact that you were insecure about your relationship with him. He knew something was up because you never wanted to go out in public together. He just thought you didn’t want to be seen by paparazzi, which was partly correct. You didn’t think you were good enough for him, because he’s all famous and shit and you’re just you.
“Y/N I have a question” he asked, “Yeah Hyunggie?”. He paused for a second, not knowing how to phrase his next sentence. “Are you uncomfortable around the other members?” you stared blankly at him, “No it’s not that”. You figured it was time to tell him, you couldn’t hide it forever.
“I uh, don’t think I’m good enough for you” you muttered, he was shocked that you would think that way. “Y/N I love you more than anything, you’re more than good enough”

“Wooseok put me down!” you shrieked, he obliged and put you down. “Why do you have to be such a party pooper Y/N?” he questioned, you just looked down hoping you wouldn’t have to answer his question. “Y/N hellloooo you there? Earth to Y/N” he said mockingly, when you didn’t answer he got concerned. “Y/N? Are you okay?”, this time you could tell he was panicking.
“Wooseok I’m sorry, I just don’t like when you pick me up” he tilted his head in confusion. “Why’s that?” you sighed “I’m insecure about my weight”. “Ohhh, please don’t be Y/N. I know you can’t exactly control it, but you are perfect”. You smiled at that, he just wanted to help you “Thanks Seokie”

Gifs are not mine
Idk why I made Kino’s so long?
And ik Hui and Kino’s are similar, I write this stuff based on my own insecurities
Be sure to request anything you want to see from me
so i was tagged by @kachuwritings❣️💗✨
rules: list your top 10 biases and then answer the questions. now,, if i were to do all my nct biases they would fill all 10 spots because i’m gay and love them all so much. so i’mma do at least two biases from my top 5 groups.
1. RM
2. Lucas
3. Yuto
4. D.O
5. V
6. Jaemin
7. Jackson
8. Sehun
9. Yanan
10. Bambam
Between 1 & 4 who would you rather kiss?
Ohgodohjeez. Just like a smooch on the cheek cuz bih ain’t legal, so uhh Namjoon cuz his dimples got me weak
Between 2 & 7 who would be your best friend?
Lucas or Jackson…. hmmm proooobably Lucas. We’re both kinda dumb and weird in an endearing way.
Between 5 & 10 who has a better voice?
Taehyung, he’s powerful. I love Bambam and all but, Tae just sounds like an angel.
Between 1 & 8 who is the funniest?
Hmmmm, I’m not sure, Sehun maybe? Idk ask a professional
Between 6 & 9 who would you date?
Okayokay for legal reasons and cuz it’s my legit answer Jaemin. I’m just so soft for him ugh. I love Yanan a lot, but bish is still a child.
Between 9 & 10 who would you do a collaboration with?
Dude idk, I honestly don’t have a preference because they’re both very talented squishies. So for kinda bashing him earlier Bambam
Between 4 & 8 who is the best dancer?
Ohh nooo both exo babies,,,, hmmm imma say Sehun,, he’s just so great and squishy and askestinasawibmir
Between 3 & 5 who would you rather marry?
Taeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee- sorry I just love him sm ughh
Between 2 & 3 who has a better smile?
Lucas’ beautiful smile, or Yuto’s adorable gummy smile. Hmmm. I uhh Yuto. I haven’t picked for anything and I feel bad
Between 6 & 8 who would you vacation with?
Jaemin or Sehun… Idk I love them both so much, Uhh probably Jaemin. I feel like Sehun would get annoyed with me or something. But Jaemin and I are both chaotic gays.
I tag @minybangy @flossyjeon @yourjeno @candycornchenle; only if you want of course
so i was tagged by @pikachulein❣️ to make a playlist of songs i like out of my biases name,, doesn’t seem to hard right? wrong lmao
im also just doing my first bias from my ult groups
BTS
Ko Ko Bop – EXO
I – TAEYEON
Moonlight – XXXTentacion
No Peace – Sam Smith
Anpanman – BTS
Mad City – NCT 127
Jealousy – MONSTA X
OKAY – Jackson Wang
Off-Road – PENTAGON
Not Warriors – Waterparks
NCT
WE LIKE 2 PARTY – BIGBANG
Our Page – SHINee
Not Today – BTS
GO – NCT Dream
YESTODAY – NCT U
Us – GOT7
Know – NF
Hello – SEVENTEEN
Electric Kiss – EXO
I Need U – BTS